Sunday, September 28, 2008

create. learn. utilize.

my heart is in such a dither after today.  So much is going on around me.  Nanny job
Amsterdam
Friends
Spencer
Family
Freedom Fest
Poverty
Collapsing Economy
Electing a President
Shoreline Community Church
Eastlake Community Church
Marriage
Happiness and Holiness
Two year olds
Covenant
Hard
Love
Devotion
Spencer
Homecoming
Stephanie
Old Spaghetti Factory
Elise
Grandparents
Messy Room
Money
Car
Bills
Broken Camera
Painting
Dance
Drawing
Writing
Creating
God's inner workings of my heart
Bible
Prayer
Small Groups
Hurting People
Homeless People
Travel
Backpacking
Foreign Countries I long to see
Writing a Book
Reading a Book
Cooking Cookies
Baking Bread
Heather off to College
Everyone off to College
Lauren
People coming here for college
Sigur Ros
Evan Morrison
Music
..............
This list could go on.

I have so many things, in a day, that run through my mind.  Tonight Josh talked about taking time to slow down, feel our limits.  I NEVER feel my limit, I always feel that I am not doing enough.  Right now I could think of just a few things I could do instead of writing this blog, alas I am forcing myself to do it.  I need to get my thoughts out, arrange, adjust, and soak in.  I have so much that I want to say, I WANT TO BE HEARD.  I want to write my life away and never take a second look back.  I have such passion and fire burning in me, seething out of my heart and fingertips.  I need to go and proclaim the amazing things that God is doing in me at this very moment.  He is teaching me, molding my soft, clay heart.  I am so ready to be everything and more then what I want, need, am called to be.  I cannot wait for God to throw me out there...all along, he is holding my hand.  I feel like hercules with him at my side.

I cannot wait for the rest of my life.

1 comment:

Ali said...

You are beautiful.

I know exactly what you mean about writing to be heard. I FEEL THE SAME WAY. It's like, you write for yourself and because you love it, but you WANT so badly to be read and to be heard.
They were talking about that in my journalism book that I was pre-reading for class tomorrow. It excites my heart to read what you write, and it is always encouraging just hearing about your life and how it is viewed through your lens and style.
Your life is beauty as it is now, and your heart is growing so much. Keep your fire burning as you anticipate what God has for you. And never forget that he has you where you're at for a reason :) I am so excited for you.