little miss fiona

Tonight I get to babysit fiona.  She is spending the night with us because jeff has to work late.  So far, we have watched ice age and now we shall lock luke in the dungeon.  She is quite ferocious.  I cannot wait to have my little Fiona, Bjorn, Leeland, and Keegan.  (All potential names)

I had such a hard time at work today.  For some reason, Mary was very demeaning and cutting.  It hurt and I had no one to turn to but God.  I read my Bible on break and it was so good.  I started to read Revelations and in the message there is an introduction to each book and Eugene talked about how John wrote Revelations and how to decipher the symbolism.  So far, it has been a totally new experience reading it then ever before.  I am throughly enjoying it.  

Also, my dad is being quite...violent and unpredictable.  Its been really hard having to deal with it "alone".  My mom is having a hard time and I only have so much strength to offer to her.  I am too weak to deal with everything all at once, but God is my source of abounding strength.  Seriously he is the only reason I get through anything.  I cannot ever explain what I am going through without talking about him, it feels really incredible.  He has blessed me with so many people who have treated me in the exact way my heart needs.  He has taught me a lot about myself, and my true heart.

My true heart is very much in love with a certain boy who I cannot wait to be reunited with someday.  And I just keep thinking, Jesus suffered SO MUCH for me,  I owe him this and my entire life.  I would rather suffer a thousand lifetimes for Jesus then live for one day in hell.